Another year
Here it is the end of the year. Another year gone. Another year older. As I age, things bother me more. I have tried to let lots go. I have forgiven others and myself for many things. That does not mean I forget. I have only forgiven to try to move on. Try to learn. Try not to make the same mistakes.
I keep trusting in the same people. Not so much as before, but still try and give them the benefit. As soon as I let my guard down, I get hurt. I am then angry at myself and feel as though, yet again, I have let both me and my family down.
This year, there have been changes. New job. Start of middle school. Both kids are starting to mature (in may ways). The kids have had to take on more responsibility since a few days a week I am not there when they get off the bus. New sitter to get them off the bus. And now a blog.
As I look in the mirror at the end of this year, I say Holy S*! Another year. Another year older. Time is flying too quickly.
Lots of good and bad this year. I just want it over and to start anew!
So here is what I say to the end of this year- Good Riddance!
Bring on the New Year with the New You!
Happy New Year... hope you stay for the ride!
I keep trusting in the same people. Not so much as before, but still try and give them the benefit. As soon as I let my guard down, I get hurt. I am then angry at myself and feel as though, yet again, I have let both me and my family down.
This year, there have been changes. New job. Start of middle school. Both kids are starting to mature (in may ways). The kids have had to take on more responsibility since a few days a week I am not there when they get off the bus. New sitter to get them off the bus. And now a blog.
There is still lots of strain - professional and personally. I want too much the be the perfect wife, mother, friend, sister and daughter. In the end, I can't please everyone. I can't be what everyone wants.
No one ever asks me what I want? I am sure many feel the same. For some reason, we just do not voice it. It is a secret club. So secret we cannot let anyone join! Instead, we sit with our own demons trying to figure it all out, alone. It is difficult to articulate. We just continuously let ourselves down.
I finally told my BFF about the the club. Found out, we feel the same way! We are only a few weeks apart in age. We have been friends since High School. Now I have a member in my double secret club. We still need t- shirts and secret handshake. We have our meeting space- either a coffee place or bar depending on time of day!
No one ever asks me what I want? I am sure many feel the same. For some reason, we just do not voice it. It is a secret club. So secret we cannot let anyone join! Instead, we sit with our own demons trying to figure it all out, alone. It is difficult to articulate. We just continuously let ourselves down.
I finally told my BFF about the the club. Found out, we feel the same way! We are only a few weeks apart in age. We have been friends since High School. Now I have a member in my double secret club. We still need t- shirts and secret handshake. We have our meeting space- either a coffee place or bar depending on time of day!
As I look in the mirror at the end of this year, I say Holy S*! Another year. Another year older. Time is flying too quickly.
Lots of good and bad this year. I just want it over and to start anew!
So here is what I say to the end of this year- Good Riddance!
Bring on the New Year with the New You!
Happy New Year... hope you stay for the ride!
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